Amazing Grace

A strange thing just yesterday. I was sitting in my office chair, watching a silly Christian movie set in the aftermath of Tiananmen called Bamboo in Winter. The movie had this old 80s feel, a poor contrast and fading color. But some how it’s message of the power & simplicity of the gospel just gripped me. I began to bawl like never before – tears, mucus, saliva and all just poured out from every orifice of my face. I bawled at the state of my poor soul, far remove from my first love. I was moved by the simplicity of the gospel and the new life it brought. Once again my heart was gripped by the grace of God – Amazing grace! I feel so far removed from that abundant life – a simple faith in an all powerful God that drove me to seek this life that is truly living. Far removed from the simple love that caused me to give up my worldly ambitions and walk with him. I guess, with all the training I have received and daily busyness in ministry, my heart has become dull toward His love and grace. Too preoccupied with ministry – teaching, preaching, planning, people, too preoccupied with living – establishing a home, trying to have children and all that jazz! In the hustle and bustle of living, I have alienated myself from life that is truly life. The simple message of the gospel of Jesus Christ filled with grace and love is so powerful, yet I have not allowed it to grip my heart.

I have had a cold for the past week and have not been able to breathe properly. This bawling surely cleared up my sinuses. It’s nice to be able to breathe in deeply. Breathe o my soul, breathe in deeply the grace of your God. Let it grip you and never let go. For one thing I know, I am a great sinner, but Christ is a great Savior.

What a way to start the new year! Perhaps, this is exactly what I needed. I have been thinking about what needs to change in the new year of ministry and maybe this is it – Me! A heart renewed & a love reignited! Brothers and sisters, in this new year, let us resolve to go back to the basics of our spiritual journey to His Word and prayer. Let our hearts be gripped by the simplicity of God’s grace. As John Newtown said, “As my memory fades, I only remember two things. I am a great sinner, but Christ is a great Savior.